Thursday, December 25, 2003

'tis the season~

merry christmas everyone!
and so it's christmas once again. the time of the year where everyone's to be merry!
if only everyday were to be christmas! shouldn't it?

well, this year is no different from the rest save for the fact that maybe it's my last christmas season when i'm yet to be a slave of the govt? mum's side of the family doesn't celebrate christmas but my dad's side does. funni isn't it? spent the eve having dinner at taka crystal palace with 'em and it was so boring. mum aren't really on good terms with them due to some money problems and moreover i had no one to 'play' with! those three older cousins would rather spend christmas in uk! haha, if i were them i'd do that too man! anyway so spent my evening listening to adult talk and advises on what to expect in army, which uni to go, the best courses etcetcetc. bored. typical talks that you'll get when ppl knows you've reached to grand age of 18. at least i managed to slip out of the room a few times to walk around taka! it was so dame crowded!

plans to meet my frens at a christmas party at clarkquay had to be cancelled tdy! why? cos of last minute planning of my auntie's christmas dinner over at her house. suppose to burn for her a cd compilation of huang pingyuan and ahtu's songs -dun even know why she likes ahtu,correct spelling?!- as a christmas present. not even completed yet so juz told her i forgotten to bring...haha! it was fun la, playing with my mum's side of the family where guess what? i'm the oldest! so played games with those cute kids of catching, hide-n-seek, touch-me-not, etc... nothing wrong letting loose and being a child once in a while is there?!

can u believe i used to strongly believe in santa when i was young? haha, ya...all the nonsense where i would hang up my stocking on my bedroom door and decorate the christmas tree with my parents when we used to live in my old house and it was like only me and my bro. waking up on christmas morning to candy rings in my cotten stocking, racing down to open the presents under the christmas tree. no surprises though... as i would have accompanied my parents to buy everything i wanted before hand and it'll only be on christmas day that we can open and play with the toys! even had turkey, puddings, log-cake for dinner. neighbours were like close friends and there would always be the occasional party! beautiful days that i've always cherished as part of my childhood...

as i've said they are all but memories... since moving house and the birth of my little bro life has been one hell of a roller-coaster and guess everyone's too busy to even spent time setting up the christmas tree hur. moved house when i was in p4 so it has been what? 8 long years? sometimes i really wish my little bro and sis could enjoy the same childhood we had, to have the same memories that i have in my heart. but i guess time changes everything and everyone. mum's older and dad has a hectic schedule, the passion and fire of young parents isn't that as they were. we used to spend so much money on toys and parties but now they think buying toys is a waste of money and organising parties is a waste of time. but isn't that all part and parcel of childhood? hopefully next year when i'm earning a pay...as a nsman that is...i can give my little bro and sis a christmas we used to have. other than the usual which is only the giving of presents. shit...what am i rambling about?! okie, point is that if you want to have kids. two or three is enough. actually it's more than enough. then we can put all our time and effort into each of 'em. and not all into the eldest and being too exhausted to let the younger ones enjoy what their elder siblings have enjoyed when they were young! and dun have kids too old!

anyway...i was pleasantly surprised late last night. received a call at 345am from her. was planning to off my hp to recharge but i guess fate had other plans? she had just arrived in singapore. it was just funny hearing her voice after like almost a year. wishes of have a merry christmas and juz catching up on what we had been doing etc. really glad to know that she's doing well in her studies. surprised that she has matured so much though. and amazed that she's single. too bad we couldn't meet up. she had to spend the day at her parents there and she's flying back in a few hours time. really glad that we've been still able to be friends. hp bill is seriously gone case for this month. first love is always the hardest to forget i guess.

hey! sorry for not updating regularly but at least it's a long entry right...... need inspiration and the time den got things to type what...... Have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year~!

James | 11:08 PM