Monday, February 16, 2004

it's been mad the past few days.
worked for 4days doing the graveyard shift. 8pm to 6am.
sleep from 7am to 5pm. den it's off to work again. no life.
night-owl, got quite sick but endurance man! bodyclock literally screwed up.
really song, nvr worked littat before so it was really an experience.
but for $11/hr is it worth it? of course. well, better den spending money everyday.
too bad it was only a few days job. real easy money. an aircon office, sit and juz paste labels. ha! teammates were real cool, every hour we'll go for either water-break, toilet-break, smoke-break, supper-break. if u ever see any GNC bottle labels not pasted straight guess it'll be us. fooling ard and juz chatting. not low, but no productivity at all. love these kinda jobs!
so guess i'm back been a slacker, something that i think i'm getting real proficient in.
and i can finally start my smallville marathon download again! finally got time to 24/7 start downloading all of season3! at last something useful to use my net for... gonna catch smallville's season premiere tmr or i'll juz die if i forget! s'pore is already lagging a month behind the u.s.

Working is a real eye-opener. experience. Get a rough idea of how companies operate, different stages of production. of course the pay has to be reasonable. adecco had the fucking nerve to ask me to work for $4/hr as a packer in eunos.
been thinking alot these few days. we live in such a huge beautiful world. why are we confined to small s'pore. limited. everyone needs a purpose in life. some kinda aim. it's only now that i've this feeling of 'aimlessness'. now majiam like a wandering vagrant. time's a standstill. to town, hav fun, find new places to eat, new pubs, go home sleep. cycle has been repeating itself. and i'm not a person who's easily bored. not like when we're studying(exams n havoc!) it's for a purpose or when we work($). everyday is different, full of surprises, meet new frens. a rollercoaster ride. full of ups and downs. that's life. can't wait to get into ns and get the dame ball rolling. hey pepz we had loads of fun but blog is for me to juz 'write' out what's in my uncertain mind, juz random thoughts with no head no tail...juz a record la. things i wun usually talk about but in mine mind... nuthin personal man! cycle can jollywell keep repeating...haha! had a discussion wif my mum over dinner. thinking of going australia visit my aunt and a few frens over there during march. she's only considering. as good as a no. with no one there to 'take care' she thinks i'll run haywire. she's right.

and it was juz the other day on the bus home after work that sth i overhead got me thinking. this lady behind was juz saying how her daughter wans to get a colour hp but the family can't afford...somewhere around that line. and the things that i chatted about with my GNC frens.
most are 22 juz ORD, some still schooling, others waiting for results. some hav signed on as a regular in ns as they need to support their family, one guy didn't buy lunch but brought plain bread to eat as he wanted to not spend money, others getting a driving license has nvr crossed their minds, some spend their time working this kind of graveyard shift jobs for their pocket-money, another goes to a cybercafe whenever he needs to use the net etc. 'about-life' chatting. really surprised how frank and straight-forward they can be though we hav nvr met before. i sincerely admire them. real friendly and nice ppl...not like many stuck-up snob bastards i know, if they knew a person lived in a hdb their attitude changes that kinda pattern. it juz opened a whole new prospective to me. friends i've been hanging out wif happily spend money clubbing, pubbing, collect handfones, go countryclubs, bet hundrends on soccer, can even argue see who losses more, hardly take public transport, go restaurants eat, can afford to go overseas study, leading the high life... so much so i know that i myself hav taken money for granted.
there was tis time after work, they were like saying in chinese 'someday meet up go lim kopi...' ...only coffeebean,starbucks,coffeeclub crossed my mind. was about to suggest orchard somewhere coffeebean...heng i kept my mouth shut. ashamed. cos we ended up discussing to find a convenient area at some coffeeshop to literaly lim kopi. can't even recall a time i've ever been to really those kind of coffeeshop to relax and lim kopi or teh wif my frens. thinking back to tat kind of lifestyle makes me sick. why do some ppl have it all while others dun? reality. dunno how to type out what i feel la. it's juz fucked up.

Black Eyed Peas - "Where Is The Love?"

What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
With ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin'
in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all, come on (I don't really know)
Where's the truth, y'all, come on (I don't really know)
Where's the love, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found

Now ask yourself
Where is the love?
Where is the love?
Where is the love?
Where is the love?

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)

James | 11:46 PM