Saturday, March 06, 2004

did i forget to add knnbccb fuck the s'pore education system fuck acjc and and yah juz fuck it.
juz back from drowning my sorrows by the poolside with absolute. they should ban absolute! no taste or smell of vodka so u keep drinking. after awhile it all hits u at once. giddiness, headaches,highness. i'm nvr drunk. dame.
bored.
that's what u get for not studying. so everyone's disappointed. where to go from here on. from a crossroad i'm faced wif a deadend. no use dwelling on the past, time to move on. nex few days gotto have a through check of nus, ntu and smu. later going for ntu talk at suntec. hopefully it'll bring much needed hope.
mum's seems alrite but i know she's disappointed. dad called back, real happy he didn't like put me down or say why i nvr study harder that kind of things, he's been encouraging. told him retaking the A's or going to poly is seriously out of the question. retaking a's would be at a disadvantage as i'll be without project work and going poly for another 2years is a sheer waste of time. he suggested taking a wait-see attitude. see which courses i can get into in s'pore nus, ntu or smu. if not can also take overseas degree in sim. or during the 2andhalf years take up parttime courses. or if all else fails send me join my cousin in aust. an idiot uncle suggested me signing up for a saf scholarship or sign on. i will sign on, if i can get into pilot's course.
nothing i can do now so time to stop thinking so much. life still has to go on. looking on the bright side, tertiary education is all in the past! time to look forward to a much more interesting and fulfilling future. come what may. what's done's done.

James | 2:02 AM