Thursday, March 04, 2004

the results are finally out tmr...
on one hand i know it's no use thinking too much about it trying to keep my cool yet on the other i am soooo apprehensive about it!
i juz know it's not gonna be good. i mean, juz looked at all my past entries since i entered ac i dun see one where i've said how hard i've studied or that i've tried my best. all i've read is how fun or how i've zaoed or watever shitmess i've gotten into. hell the past 2years had juz flown by unknowingly. dun even know what i've learnt. hopefully i'll be as tyco as my o's but now i seriously doubt it veryvery much. omg i'm sososo afraid! i know i've not done my best. ha, think i juz psyching myself up for the worst tmr!!!
2years of my life all boiling down to a slip of paper on which my destiny so heavily depends on. or should i say it's my whole schooling life and my future?! where will i go from here on? yeah i know poly would hav been much suitable choice but i would hav not known which course i wanted. with whats' all said and done here i am at another milestone-crossroad-junction in my life! list of options available should i do badly (touchwood!!!): 1.retake my A's as a private candidate. no way am i going back into ac. 2. go poly.seriously doubt i will as it's really a waste of time. 3.go overseas for further studies after ns.most likely. 4.go and die.most likely too.
i'll never juz go into a course which i'm not interested in, dun even know what course i wan. maybe economics or law of commerce... sth to do wif money, business etc. of course if the results are a-ok den i muz be the tycoest (if there's such a word) guy on earth. ok, so i wish and hope and pray i'll at least get a BBB. but realisticly think i'll get a CCC. results are gonna be nerve-wrecking to say the least! wish all j3s the best of luck.
well! i'll see u again bloggie at this time tmr... so plz pray i'll be in a goodmood! *crosses all fingers and toes!*

James | 11:59 PM