Sunday, October 31, 2004

Finally, last week as a trainee... realli wonder where i'm gonna be posted to. many a times have i wondered, do i hav wat it takes to lead 9men. seriously i do not know. indeed there're many things i doubt about myself.
Is this my purpose in life?
Is what i'm doing everyweekend all there is to my existence?
Is the next 1half years going to be a mundane through and through affair?
Is there more to life den this?
As everyday passes, it just builds up... i'm so dangerously close.
Stuck in this state of consciousness. a paradise lost.
No matter how much i pretend, i'm feelin' the same way all over again.
it's absurd.
My dad used to tell me; we're all capable of anything. life asks of you what it thinks you can handle. but there'll always be days when we'll think it will ask of too much. that's when i'll have to think of everything i've endured and the good things that're ahead and that's where i'll find the strength to keep going.

can u believe my neighbour hung a horrible pumpkin latern outside her home? really heartwarming and funny to watch the kids tricktreating...

James | 9:14 PM